i've been at a bit of a loss for words lately.
and it is one reason why you all have heard so little from me this past week.
in many ways,
i feel a bit paralyzed, stuck.
or simply like i'm running in place.
i told my host family a week ago that i would be leaving early.
i explained that living in germany,
a place so far from home and family,
isn't the place for me right now.
i am fortunate that they have been so understanding.
after all, they sensed that i was not happy,
that i missed home.
but, since i gave notice,
my need to be home, near the people that really know me,
grows more and more unbearable each day.
meanwhile, time has slowed.
and i feel like i am getting nowhere.
i have no more than two weeks before I will be on a plane,
and on my way home.
talk of apartement shopping and a road trip are in the works.
however, all i know for certain is that,
1. there is an unassembled burrito out there with my name on it, and,
2. lots of cuddle time with the kids and fiance.
I know this is just a temporary period of adjustment,
I will be back to my normal self soon!
my apologies for the down in the dumps post- again- but, i'm just trying to keep it real.
Plus, i'll be interested to look back on this a year from now and see how my perspective has changed.